Okay so the last few weeks have been a tough few for me.  I don't know why the depression hit me again but it did and boy was it a doozy.

More than normal I felt the need to really push people away and just retreat into myself.  And it was everyone that I was pushing away, Ste, Al, Dad, Kat.... Everyone...

But I am lucky that Ste is a stubborn bugger and wouldn't let me cut him out too much and we have been working on the whole bunch of issues he has surrounding sex.  But they are going to take months to work through it is definately not a quick fix, but we are getting there.  He has got over most of his issues with giving me pleasure so at least that part is being satisfied.

And this last week I have realised that cutting myself off from everyone is only really hurting me.  So I am working at building back up all the ties that I had started to ignore.